really dont get people who eat 3 meals a day like… i used to do that back at my parents’ but now i eat so much less? like i generally eat once every 2 or 3 days and im doing fine and im never hungry. i cant even imagine what it feels like to eat 3 meals a day now… is this normal

throwback to 2015 when my cat almost gave me an heart attack

i just remembered that 6 yo me swore they would marry a giant worm because “i dont like boys! i dont want a HUSBAND! id rather have A GIANT WORM!” and,,,,,,,,

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i wish i was at dawn in a lavender field

i wish it was 5am and i was bare foot in the middle of a brook listening to birds and the forest

i wish i was back in the mountains and having a walk on the road at 3am in my 19th century like white nighshirt looking like the ghost i am inside

honestly i just want to treat a girl right… waking up earlier than her & bringing her breakfast in bed… listening to her talking about her day… making her feel safe & loved and taking cute pictures of her & taking her on cute romantic dates… ugh

i just heard a psychiatrist say on the radio that “patients in psychiatric hospitals are treated with humanity and kindness”. like we’re not completely dehumanized. like they don’t let a man yell and kick the walls for the entire night because he’s anxious when he’s alone. like one of my friends didn’t get raped when she was hospitalized. by a NURSE. like they didn’t put a young female patient i was friends with in a terrifying closed room with handcuffs and a 92 years old woman with dementia because i told the staff she had received rape threats. meanwhile, the rapist? the guy who constanlty touched us without our consent? the guy who said homophobic horrors to me? they just let him stay in his comfortable room, with a good bed, and an open door.

but yes. tell me about how humane and empathetic you are in psychiatric structures, “doctor”.

my boi!!!!!

current mood: blasting “take a chance on me” while sobbing in the shower