– after a “hint” i could be gay (read: i told her i liked how blue hair looked like) my mother threw a big fit, called me a degenerate dyke and demanded i left her house “if i wanted to fuck other disgusting whore dykes”. i was prepared to this and actually started packing my stuff, until my father told me she had “changed her mind”. 

– after this she gave me the silent treatment for weeks, and openly despised me, only talking to me to make sure i knew i was a subhuman (i mean, it didnt change much from the usual, but still)

– homosexuality was taboo

– when i finally came out, she simply refused to believe me, called me an actor and a drama queen thirsty for attention

– i had to come out literally 3 times

– once she told me to “prove it”

– my father said nothing, ever, but he was more accepting

– she finally started to believe me when i introduced them to my ex

– then she manipulated me into breaking up with my ex (which didnt work)

– she said i was gonna be a victim of conjugal violence because “statistics prove that lesbians are violent”

– said i was mutilating myself & that i wanted to be “an fucking faggot symbol” when i shaved my head and basically started acting more masculine 

– started controlling even more obsessively my body, my clothes, and my whole life

– lifted my shirt to expose my boobs to my father when she found out i stopped wearing a bra, and had him contemplate and comment on my boobs’ appearance. she also lifted my shirt everyday to make sure i was wearing a bra. 

– had me kneel before her and vocally admit i was the luckiest lesbian on earth because they were “supportive” and “didn’t expel me from their house” 

– still called me slurs, and insulted me on a daily basis (ableism, homophobia, misogyny, and others) 

– probably other things im forgetting

and honestly, im not complaining. i know there are plenty of other people who are in a much more difficult situation with their family than i was. 

this doesnt mean to be useful, or informative. i just felt like writing this down. (you can reply and like but please dont reblog)