Tag: gino’s soliloquy

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you know, i always rolled my eyes at media that go like “follow your dreams! believe in yourself! you can achieve anything you set your mind to!” because… as a crazy traumatized dyke, this really didnt apply to me, or what i thought was “the real world”… but in the hindsight?? my abusive mother did literally all she could think of to deter me from writing and studying literature, from hardcore manipulation to physical abuse & outright refusal to let me do what i love – throwing my books out of the window into the muddy garden, forcing me to be held back a year in highschool even tho i had the best grades of the whole school because she didnt want me to go into the literary section, forcefully going through my writings (and telling me it was shitty), forbidding me to see my writer friend & be involved in writing seminars, etc. –

she persuaded me i had no literary talent whatsoever, be it in creative writing or in text analysis, and all… 

but i persisted and now im a literature major and im going to write for the Comédie-Française lmao

so, yea, believe in your dreams, i guess!

im just DYING to see her face when im gonna tell her, “hey mom! ive been chosen to write at the Comédie-Française with 15 other writers! My texts are gonna be read in public by the very comedians you idolize, on the very building you worship!”

She’s The Most Elitist Person of the year & is a really big fan of cultural institutions (for my non-french followers: its the oldest theater in France, and now, alongside with the Académie Française, is a cultural monument. Both were funded by Louis XIV and represent the typical french intellectualism)… shes gonna be big mad lmao

you know, i always rolled my eyes at media that go like “follow your dreams! believe in yourself! you can achieve anything you set your mind to!” because… as a crazy traumatized dyke, this really didnt apply to me, or what i thought was “the real world”… but in the hindsight?? my abusive mother did literally all she could think of to deter me from writing and studying literature, from hardcore manipulation to physical abuse & outright refusal to let me do what i love – throwing my books out of the window into the muddy garden, forcing me to be held back a year in highschool even tho i had the best grades of the whole school because she didnt want me to go into the literary section, forcefully going through my writings (and telling me it was shitty), forbidding me to see my writer friend & be involved in writing seminars, etc. –

she persuaded me i had no literary talent whatsoever, be it in creative writing or in text analysis, and all… 

but i persisted and now im a literature major and im going to write for the Comédie-Française lmao

so, yea, believe in your dreams, i guess!

epicene-street-light:

i thought i was done with dysphoria but apparently not lmao

i got misgendered all day by classmates (who also said psychophobic things) & im on my way to work with children and families…. so its not like i can walk to them and tell them i go by a masculine name & pronouns bc im a nonbinary dyke lmao

like i started thinking i was really just a cis woman estranged from her own gender but i dont think cis women have dysphoria and change their names for male ones and hate being called “she” or “girl”, yknow 

les gens!!! Je vais bosser avec la Comédie-Française!!!!! genre wow!! C’est un genre d’atelier d’écriture/lecture pour les étudiant.e.s et les textes sont lus par les comédien.ne.s à la fin de l’année je!!!

i thought i was done with dysphoria but apparently not lmao

i got misgendered all day by classmates (who also said psychophobic things) & im on my way to work with children and families…. so its not like i can walk to them and tell them i go by a masculine name & pronouns bc im a nonbinary dyke lmao

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was in literature class & literally had flashbacks and a panic attack so violent i thought it was a seizure lmao

college is awesome tho ppl will see someone huddled on the floor on a corridor, literally shaking so hard it looks like theyre convulsing, and go like “yep, the usual”

je me demandais pourquoi Notre-Dame-des-Fleurs de Genet me paraissait aussi familier, en fait c’est juste parce que c’est la version gay de l’album Irrésistible de Juliette

(Divine c’est Monsieur Vénus you cant change my mind)

in conclusion: french gays is the same