i feel like the grip of PTSD and depression on me is slowly loosening. im able to do things, and feel excited about books, again… im actually able to write about this. life feels so much more peaceful. ive lived 20 years with this shit and im so close to the surface im starting to see the sunlight from underwater. this is so good. i can physically feel myself becoming warmer and kinder, and basically becoming the person i so deeply needed when i was younger. i cant believe its actually getting better!