it’s wild sliding back into depression when you’re self aware from being through it before because your brain starts telling you all these mean things and you’re just like “wow we’re doing this again huh”
types of gays: house edition (note: im using gay as an umbrella term!)
cottage gay: likes tea, artsy, good w plants, apologizes too much, dies every time someone complements them, lives in their own fantasies, doing their best but never thinks so
penthouse gay: art deco, expensive drinks, cherries and pomegranates, doesn’t close their blinds, knows the name of their barista, loves sunsets and fancy lingerie
castle gay: would have a closet for their capes, four-poster bed with three duvets, probably needs smelling salts, easily digresses, candles and dinner parties
lodge gay: reclusive, opens up to 3 (three) people in their entire lifetime, loves tapestries, hardworking, loves sleeping, could sit outside for hours, listens 2 folk music
tree house gay: has terrible handwriting, never too many throw pillows, constantly anxious, string lights and lava lamps, has taken a ceramic class, loves rice
i also want to talk about how dysphoria can fuel eating disorders to an the point that thinness maintained by a restrictive eating disorder can feel like an integral part of gender expression for trans people & how the demonization of fatness in our culture can hugely hinder the recovery even of people whose eating disorders always revolved more around dysphoria than the fear of being fat
i want to talk about how the culturally enforced ideas of thinness as the epitome of androgyny, thinness as the epitome of femininity, & “maybe not thinness but definitely a lack of curves that can sometimes only be obtained by thinness” as the epitome of masculinity poison our thinking as trans people & contribute to an overwhelming epidemic of eating disorders in our community disproportionate to even the epidemic in wider sociey
i want to talk about how controlling our food to control our bodies & to control our minds & to feel like we have some control over circumstances that are wildly out of our control is horrifyingly commonplace in the trans community & no one is talking about it
