im really glad & proud to be doing what im doing with my life rn! also i realized i could have been in a much different place – dead, of course, but not only – i was a really gifted music composer, was offered a place at 14 in the 2d most demanding and prestigious musical composition cursus in france! i refused because what i really wanted was literature, but really, i actually have many talents, wow! i dont regret it in the slightest (music really wasnt for me) but its nice to think i was talented in something else. maybe ill go back to music composing one day! who knows…