ok i know its selfish and that i have no right to feel this way but it makes me feel both terribly mad and terribly helpless to see my friends liking and admiring my mother, and going out to have a drink with her like i know they have every right to appreciate her – she was an amazing teacher after all – but it kills me to see them talk about her with admiration in their voice when they know (maybe not in detail, but in general) what she did to me,,, like yes they have their personal lives and not everything has to be about me but i just feel like this whole situation is unfair……

anyway.