furiousgoldfish:

list of shit I wish I had done differently while living with abusers:

• nothing
• everything I’ve done back then was to survive and get myself out of it alive, even when I was making decisions for abuser’s benefit it was still the only way for me to keep living. I’m not going to be ashamed of my past decisions that have kept me alive until this moment no matter how stupid they might have looked to others. No one could have survived differently or better than I did. We all do only thing we can to keep alive when living with predators. We’re not wrong to stay living. We’re not wrong to fight with all we have to keep ourselves from being harmed.